Kay Bye

Kay bye Xanga!

I'm done and never update anyway.

I'll stick around to read my favorite bloggers.

Have nice lives.

One Tear at a Time

My grandfather passed away this morning at about 6 or 7 in the morning.

He passed just minutes before I could get my mom, brother, and I to the hospital even though I was going about 95 in a 55; I tried. My younger sister was with him when he went and she said he went peacefully and quick.

The only thing good I think I can take from this now is he's no longer in pain. I don't know if I believe in life after death and this, like the other deaths I have experienced in my life, has sent me into a state of confusion and questioning everything.

You know, it's awkward walking into a room of more than a dozen people who are crying. And when you look into the eyes of the body laying there still warm, you feel nothing. It's not until you look into the eyes of the mourning that the emotions hit you: the memories, the conversations, the good times and the bad.

There is one thing that I can say about my relationship with my grandfather in 19 years I have known and loved him. I never once took him for granted and I'm thankful for that. He lived so far away and I hardly got to see him so whenever I did see him or talk to him on the phone, I spoke to him as it would be the last time. As recent events have proven, a lot can happen in mere months.

I was his oldest grandchild. The only one he got to see go through high school and make it to college. The last time I got to spend real time with him was when I came to visit for three days earlier this month. He told me several times that he was proud of me going through school, having a stable job, and being a "good member of the family", as he put it.

Now, we're off to mediate disputes about services and burial plots.

Again, thank you all for all of the support you have given me. It means the world to my family and I.

<3

Something I Feel Stongly About.

Hey fellow Tennesseans! It's fair to say that lately the local media has been plagued with politcal ads. "Bob Corker is selfish!" "Harold Ford Jr.'s family is an overbearing political machine." Honestly, it gets tiring listening to it all. Who knows what is truth and what are lies anymore? However, there is one extrememly important issue that is up for the voters to decide on in fourteen days. That issue is the first proposed amendment to the Tennessee Constitution. This amendment states,

"The historical institution and legal contract solemnizing the relationship of one man and one woman shall be the only legally recognized marital contract in this state.  Any policy or law or judicial interpretation, purporting to define marriage as anything other than the historical institution and legal contract between one man and one woman, is contrary to the public policy of this state and shall be void and unenforceable in Tennessee.  If another state or foreign jurisdiction issues a license for persons to marry and if such marriage is prohibited in this state by the provisions of this section, then the marriage shall be void and unenforceable in this state."

This amendment, if passed, will forever ban the union of homosexual couples in the state of Tennessee. In doing so, these comitted couples will not share the same (nearly) 1,200 rights and benifits as heterosexual couples; rights such as shared health benefits, shared retirement benefits, and tax breaks will be prohibited from same-sex couples. 

To pass this amendment is arguabley unconstitutional. This amendment threatens to infringe upon the people's right to persue happiness.

Does allowing same-sex couples to marry hurt anyone? No. It does not hurt our government, economy, or the citizens of our state in any way. In fact, married couples help to stimulate the economy, so in all reality, allowing committed homosexual partners to be legally recognized as married couples has only positive effects.

The most prevelent point that people in favor of this amendment have is mainly based on religious beliefs which is not grounds for changing the State's Constitution as it is the law that there is to be a separation between the Church and the State. Others in favor of the amendment that that claim to not be hiding behind the conservative religious groups have no points to support their stance on the issue other than that they just do not like it. In one somewhat heated debate with someone who shall remain nameless, he said, (and this is a direct quote) "I have no problem with gay couples wanting to be together, they just shouldn't have the right to get married." This statement, I find, both outlandish and hypocritical.

I am not saying that if Amendment One is defeated, then it will be automatically legal for homosexual couples to marry in the state of Tennessee, however, it would bring us one step closer to equal rights for same-sex couples. This would be a huge victory, not just for the gay community, but for all of those in favor of equal rights for all citizens. It would also show the nation that we are definately opposed to this discriminatory amendment and perhaps, the state of Tennessee would lead by example and show the nation that banning these couples from equal rights is wrong.

Because I could go on forever and this is already getting far too long, I'm going to wrap it up. In fourteen days, we, the citizens of Tennessee have an unbelievable opportunity to be the first state to reject a proposed constitutional ban on the protection for homosexual couples. I urge all of you who are 18 or older to vote in this election. Forgoing your right to vote is the equivalent to forgoing your right to free speech and to be heard by your government. If you are not yet registered to vote you have fourteen days to do so and it is easy (and free). I am pleading with you to vote NO on Amendment One. I can not stress enough how important it is that Tennesseans stand up and show the government that we are opposed to this amendment.

Thank you.

[end.rant.]

Revived

I'm only reviving my Xanga so I can rant without the other 2 parties involved figuring it out.

I like a boy.
He doesn't know it.
He likes my best friend.
She doesn't know it.

WHY DOES THIS SHIT HAPPEN EVERY SINGLE TIME??!

I'm not even mad because I can't be really but I'm sad and sick with jealously.

Maybe it's jsut because EVERY SINGLE time I've ever liked a boy it's always ended up like this.

<\\3

Hmmm.

I think I'm done with Xanga.

Forever.